arghh...i just woke up...alomst one hour of nap...i'm damn tired...

by the way, i wished for sth...or rather i hoped for sth and i got my answer today...whether it's the truth, it's the answer i wana get and realised that somehow, my wish has came true...lol...it's difficult to turn back coz that is the answer that i received...sry, u n i shall not miss any opportunities in our lives so we shall leave each other as we are...I'm glad to accept the fact...

went lib with derrick and jo after school today...impromtu though...is that what our friends can talk about anyway??why must it be who and who must be together...the more i hear it, the more sour i feel it's turinging out to be...it is impossible for derrick and i to like each other as i face that fact...yah~ the truth of who derrick likes can only be known by asking the main actor and not the me; the truth lies within the person...finally, i can say that he doesn't fancy me...haha...yah~ it's pretty obvious to say coz i'm an expert already??

no twist will happen coz i've no climax to start with...

I've been feeling dumb and stupid lately...how do you name a woman who is neither pretty nor clever?? not a bimbo definitely??that's worse than a bimbo...i'm the girl whose brain doesn't seem to function well, been dumb and stupid lately...my god~ i've been comparing myself with some people; my friends and i'm feeling bloody damn demoralised...A girl feels dumb when she's falling in love... I'm not falling in love but i feel like i'm falling way too hard that if i land onto the ground, my bones will shatter like a piece of fragile glass...

at least i'm talking to someone who seems dumb in love whose love might nv be reciprocated coz he's one who i can fall back on but nv would be a couple...it's hardly possible...i hope that he'll understand me one day...feelings become a secret...a secret so easy a word to say but yet so difficult to keep...i asked him and he made me happy a little...he said i'm called: " huimin" ...thankx...at least i wouldn't feel so emotional...

i hope i won't be stupid for chinese...at least i can leave YJC with a pass in chinese...