this morning or rather when i was asleep i dreamt while Mr Low was addressing us in the hall, we heard a crash on the building...in my heart i thought a plane crashed into our building...it was true...it crashed and crashed again onto the block where the staff roon was and at the library...I screamt in hysterical...omg~and nothing came upon my mind...what i knew was to run...i ran...some others too...ran towards somewhere to hide...Running down the stairs, I found a place to stay safe for the time;the teachers toilet and the ground level behind the tuckshop...oh my god~it was insane for me to dream such thing...what does it predict?dreams are premonition...however...I can't remember who was the guy who said that it was his fault for offending someone who has come for revenge and he was sure that the attacks were against him...anyway...after that ghastly incident i ran out of the toilet and went out of school...Hugging one guy somemore...wth?! while going out of the school gates i saw this guy...wee bing...wth?why had he enter my dream anyway?he saw mi and told mi he waned to see his teacher...he didn't know about the incident and i was too shocked for words...but i managed to tell him not to go in...Still, he went in...anyway...i didn't know what happened after that...i only knew that the guy whom i hug is always changing...my goodness heaven...god bless me...but i told myself that it wasn't real...it wasn't real...i mean i told myself while in my dreams...it was totally impossible for me to do that...impossible for me to quickly fall in love and to take it that hugging mi meant that the guy liked me and we'll be gf n bf just like this!it would not happen...will not happen again, ok?

Why?why do i have such traumatising dream?is it predicting something which is gonna happen???my dream must be changed...usually i'm dreaming a world of fantasies but not a world of horror...but it may not be bad anyway for i can change my dream....nono...is change to how i react on my dream...perhaps it's really how i gonna see things and act on circumstances...

but let me tell myself that i'm no longer what i used to be...

I just did a sch's a math paper 2 and marked it...omg~almost everything is wrong and i'm wondering whether the answer is wrong or i'm totally wrong???omg~can't believe it...even the simpliest calculation part my answer is wrong!!how can it be???nevermind~i'll check the mistakes again...do corrections...see and correct my mistakes...i can't afford to make such unforgiveavle careless mistakes...anyhow, the paper one was manageable although i had left 3-4 parts of the question out coz i can't remember the formula...hmmm...I'm power in functions...scored almost full marks for that particular question...maybe minus 1 mark for not stating some facts...lol...a spur of carelessness...always like this!!arghhh...why I'm so blind to not spot that missing part???freak me...

Today is mr low 60th birthday!had some time celebrating his birthday and the pioneer batch came back...basically, it's all those who were closed to him and brought him memories then...yeah~huaLong was one of them and i was kinda shock...cheng hoe was there too...then the rest i dunno liao...except the fact that i saw this beautiful head-prefect but dunno her name although mr low did mention...lol...i only took note of her appearance...defintiely flawless...
After english period was P.E and I played basketball with my friends...haha...I fell, twisted my ankle and head the CRACk sound...Mr Rmesh asked me if i was ok and to be brave, i said i was ok...Anyway...Mr ramesh took over my place and played for my team...he took over a girls' place so he was able to tackle the girls...funny...i then sad down and watched them play...den i tried to be funny and went to move my ankel ti the left side and to the right "crack crack" and i didn't want to crack any further...lol...after awhile, i felt that i ought to go back and help my friends...so i asked mr ramesh that i want to play...he let mi and i realised that when i ran, my ankle hurts...so i asked him to replace me again...lol...i blamed my unluckiness to qinping and i told him it was because i stand next to him that i was so unlucky...haha...didn't meant it...was joking...
In class there was no teacher...so we did nth and just talked...had early recess too...today is no rulex day ba...lol...
Hmmmm...den took pictures with frens and teachers after their meeting...lol...anyway, my leg hurts still...had difficulties kneeling down...lol...

Tomorrow is Monday...it's always a seven day cycle; Monday tuesday Wednesday thursday friday...seems mundane...nothing is stagnant...lol...except for stagnant water though...yeah~tml I'm going to get back most of my prelimary examination papers and getting "helly" soon...I know...my results are not at all excellent...but you know what???i somehow trust my dream last night...if i'm not wrong, it happened in my dreams last night...

I dreamt that Mrs Bala was praising my improvements in english and that she read my blog...then i was thinking to myself...I wrote some comments on certain teachers before and therefore she should have read it...I was appalled definitely...i wondered how she gained access to my blog and intruded into my privacy...however, she encouraged me to continuse blogging as it might help to further improve my english standard...and i woke up by the knock on the door...why is my dream so short???and it'll always be disturbed...

Wow?!yeah~i had this eerie dream and what does it symbolises???can't be stress perhaps???perhaps smug???oh no~ i can't be!!cause I'm not at all BEST in any SUBJECTS...Have not TOP in any subjects so far...so yeah...tml i'm definitely gonna get back our english scripts and getting hell from our teachers...lol...scolding not hell though...I really hope that I pass my english...pray god!!

there's something embedded in my head...something that i can't forget which is him...when i was watching a drama and ther's this scene when the man tells the woman that the person she's thinking id the one she loves most...therefore, i think it's true for me to...although i know that he's not a great guy to be with but for the time that we've be with i still rmb...those happy and disappointing moments...so i'm wondering why???i really hope hope hope to forget the existence of that person!!!but why does it sems that i can't forget him???in reality, i can go for other guys...which i didn't and dare not to...it's because of him!I don't want to get hurt again...maybe it's the fact that i'm not fully mature and my thinking is not realistic...there's many times when i go online and i saw his nick...he has a new gf and should be lovingly together...so how i wish that i can tear them apart...which i don;t have the abilty to...i'm not a bitch to come up with unscrupulous wanys to break them apart...perhaps, i just hope that one day he will be ditched and hope he will experience the feeling of being disregarded...i hope that tml will be a better tml and when i wake up, everything about him would be erased...but it seems so hard to do that...i don't know what i can't let go off???drown my sorrows by studying...i realised that this way could solve the problem...