there's something embedded in my head...something that i can't forget which is him...when i was watching a drama and ther's this scene when the man tells the woman that the person she's thinking id the one she loves most...therefore, i think it's true for me to...although i know that he's not a great guy to be with but for the time that we've be with i still rmb...those happy and disappointing moments...so i'm wondering why???i really hope hope hope to forget the existence of that person!!!but why does it sems that i can't forget him???in reality, i can go for other guys...which i didn't and dare not to...it's because of him!I don't want to get hurt again...maybe it's the fact that i'm not fully mature and my thinking is not realistic...there's many times when i go online and i saw his nick...he has a new gf and should be lovingly together...so how i wish that i can tear them apart...which i don;t have the abilty to...i'm not a bitch to come up with unscrupulous wanys to break them apart...perhaps, i just hope that one day he will be ditched and hope he will experience the feeling of being disregarded...i hope that tml will be a better tml and when i wake up, everything about him would be erased...but it seems so hard to do that...i don't know what i can't let go off???drown my sorrows by studying...i realised that this way could solve the problem...